I don’t know if anyone else has experienced this, but when I was a kid, I used to lie awake at night and miss my mom.
Not just a little, or when she was out of town, either.
I would wake up at three a.m. with this powerful longing. It took my breath away, and almost like a physical pain. It didn’t matter if she was in the room next door or an hour away I needed to see her.
When I was older, I learned that it was a part of abandonment issues.
But something I heard today put it into a better perspective.
I watched a video of a woman speaking about Jesus at a large event.
And she said that people who see Jesus’s face for the first time on judgement day, who rejected him in life, will then be sent to hell. Where they will burn…not just with fire, but with this intense longing to see Him again.
This intense longing for His light.
And I realized that those nights when I longed for my mom–those are just a shadow of the longing that I would feel for Jesus in hell.
I know that I’m going to heaven. And if you ask me why I’m confident in this, my only answer is Jesus.
Jesus saved me. There was nothing I’ve done or could do that could ever earn me a spot with Him in eternity.
But do I long for Him now with that same intensity?
The answer is no. But He is so good, so lovely, so deeply what I was created for. He is the most valuable thing in the universe.
So today I’m on my knees, asking to long for Him again. Praising Him that we can spend eternity together. Thinking about this life in the light of heaven.
Will you join me on your knees? Wherever you’re reading this, will you kneel down and ask the God of heaven to help you value and long for him rightly?
Until next time,
Vella